Who I Need To Be

Kevin Csolak

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I've been hiding in this
House for days

Ignoring people's calls

Trying to relax but feeling
Strangled by these walls

Too afraid to go outside
But restless

Staying in with the memories inside this
Place
That brick and sweat engine

This house is very homey now
And everything's kept
Needs

But I can't shake the
Thoughts of when it wasn't
Warm and sweet

I tried my hardest to forget
The liquor and the buckles

But it all came back when
Simon's blood was on my
Knuckles

Trapped in a cycle I can't
Break
I'm not who

I want to be
For my little brother sake
Now I need to be set free

How do I find shelter from
The storm that I've become?

Baby needs a
Life that won't
Force him to go numb

How do I help keep him afloat?
Now that I started sinking

How can I look him in the
Eyes with the hateful things
I'm thinking?

I have to
Be more than all the pain
That's
Before
And be who he needs me
I do

I'm afraid this violent
Rage won't ever go
Away
I didn't mean to go that far
I hope that he's okay

Simon's never done a thing
But tried to tell the truth
And now I know it's all been
Real
Because I've seen the proof

I convinced myself
It was right
That he deserved the pain
And he only made it worse
When he tried to explain

That night
Things
Got out of hand
He really could have died

What if I've gone overboard?
What if I had tried?
Trapped in a cycle I can't break
I'm not who I want to be
For my little brother sake

Now I need
To be set free
How do I find shelter from
This storm that I've become?

Jamie needs a life that won't
Force him to go numb
How do I help keep him afloat?
Now that I started sinking

How can I look him in the
Eyes with the hateful things
I'm thinking?
I have to

Be more than all the pain
That's come before
But I don't know
Where to start

I'm afraid I'll fall apart
And he'll end up alone
Or like me
If I can't be who he needs
Me to be